Dear Maxamilian,
You, my sweet baby boy are no longer a baby. You are two today. And, I can’t believe I am momma to such an amazing person! Yes, I am one lucky lady. Max, when you came into my life I had no idea how much you would change my world. You have been teaching me lessons that the years I lived before you had not even broached. You have given me a love that is untouched by any word I could choose to describe its power. You are my little Buddha in so many ways. I can only hope that as you grow I can return the gift.
My world as I knew it was flipped upside down and folded inside out the moment I went on the journey of labor with you. New and fantastic emotions blazed through each rush. A strange and celebrated world beamed through your eyes the instant we met. This morning, two years ago my son, I gave birth to you and you birthed a mother in me.
Since you joined our family making us “three” you have grown and changed so much. Your light within guides me graciously through every challenge that arises with mothering. At the same time, I lovingly hold you up as you tackle your own new skills each and every day. Each floret of knew knowledge, you have celebrated right along with me. I owe this life I’m living to you. Your perfect entrance into our world, your perfect first cry, the energy and awe that filled our bedroom that morning… still to this day moves me to tears of joy when I ponder it all. They are memories that will forever mark the beginning of a love I will always cherish so unspeakably deeply. How can such a small being bring so much love with him? What is your secret my dear son? I would like to give it to others.
You are no longer an infant or a baby (though you will always be my baby). You are walking, talking, and constantly showing me what it means to live both independently and symbiotically. You are a vibrant toddler. That inner fire of life – that I have never seen in any adult – burns so strong within you. When I look into your eyes I melt with feelings of gratitude and grace.
As a toddler, you have become insistent on doing everything on your own. “Me do,” is something I hear several times a day. This, undoubtedly, makes me so proud.
Time and time again you show your papa and I just how well you pay attention to what is going on around you and just how well you understand it all. You are starting to show a strong interest in music, language, art, nature, and other children. You love to sing and dance. Every morning I awaken to papa and you singing in the living room while moving your hands and body in rhythm to the words coming out of the speakers. Papa will probably be the one to cultivate a love for music in you. I tend to keep the house quite throughout the day.
Every day words grow from your lips like vines that plan to reach the sky. Papa and I read several books to you every day. Our morning routine is breakfast, singing, dancing, and then reading a few of your favorite books. No word is too difficult for you to tackle and just about no sentence is too complex for you to understand. Your intelligence amazes me every day.
Admittedly, your papa and I were a tiny bit worried for a while because we thought you were not speaking as early as you should be. Well, you showed us one night when you walked out into the living room and said to papa clear as the night’s deep blue sky, “where’d mommy go?” You were 20 months old. Now, language fascinates you. Momma really has to watch what she says!
For your second birthday papa and I are giving you an easel with a dry erase board on one side and a chalk board on the other side. We also made an art box for you that is filled with all kinds of fun art supplies. Now that you are starting to say “no” (sometimes) when I ask you if you want to watch Sesame Street (who’da thought that would ever happen???), we wanted to give you something creative to do with your hands, eyes, and mind.
Momma and papa are going to have to find a way to make a space for you outside. That is our goal for this year: to turn our back yard into a play area for you (and BellaGrace when she’s old enough to join you in outside play). Right now your love for nature shows in your fascination with animals. You even know what a sloth is!!! Momma and papa don’t buy an excessive amount of toys for you so we have to make the one’s we do buy really spectacular. Without fail, you love any toy that is animal oriented. I’m hoping this love for animals will make it easy for you to understand why we don’t eat them.
Ever since you turned 18 months old, you have consistently amazed me with how socially gentle and wise you are. You are the kind of child that other people love to be around. Once at the library a woman who also has a toddler told me that meeting you made her want to have another baby – and she is dead set on only having one child. That was the highest of high compliments a mama could ever get. And I have to say, having you made me want to have more children, too.
You are my big boy, now. And you make sure I know you’re not a baby anymore by telling me, “I not baby, I big boy.” Momma and papa love you so very much, Maxamilian.
Happy Birthday, sweetheart.
Love,
Momma
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